20... scares me somehow...

Well last month I just turn 20th years old girl hehehe...

The reason I say 20 is scares me cause my mom (and my whole family actually) wants me to get married early and she hoping that I had someone but I was enjoying of being single...hahaha XDD. I still remember what one of my brothers said to me "By next year I want you to get married or get engaged and I'm the one who going to look for you" well.. actually I totally agree with him when come to the part " I'm the one who going to look for you" cause I'm not really good in this matter and he's a guy so he knows what kind of guy can suites with me...maybe hehehe...

If I take a closer look that my mom got engaged when her age is 21 and got married when her age is 22 same goes to my elder sister got engaged when her age is 21 and married it's in 22. Okay IF this really happen to me too I just have 2 years to enjoy of being single and if not I'll say Alhamdulillah.. Aamiin. One thing about my brothers type of person that he will do on what he has said and yes he doing it even not in front of me but I know. I very very understand why they are acting like this towards me. They are worry about me and this world that is not scure for a woman cause there a lot of cases like raping, killing and kidnap in these days...huh? That is one of the REASON why mom wants me to married early in order to save me from all kind of bads things. The other reason is my mom afraid if she can't watch over me anymore she said to me this "I'm too older to look over you now it's time for you to have someone to look over you". Everytime I heard about this I was like "Ok don't cry" hehehe... 

Most of my close friends always have to listen about this over and over again and I sorry for that. I really really sorry for this thing that I had on my mind. What ever it is all of you are my BEST FRIENDS and thank you for listen to it ·

Well it just whats on my mind.. maybe I'm think too much

Stupid classmate

The reason I said like that is they don't want to be friends with me cause I'm like them always with MAKE-UP and I wear make-up just for don't want to look so bad. Okay that not too tension and I don't give a FUCK to that stupid thing. 

What's really make me tension and stress is they trying to say I'm a sleeping partners in the group assignment who actually I'm the who work a lot in the group. Also they also won't tell me if they had some information like lecture cancelling the class or anything. I'm the one who asking their phone numbers to get the information but every thing is on the WeChat and Whatsapp never replied my message and call.. okay I've that Whatsapp but their never try to whatsapp me(those who have my phone numbers). 

They be like this since 2nd semester until now 5th semester so one day when I really angry about it and starts to explode to the whole class. Soon after they trying to get my phone numbers buts with insulting and humiliate me. Yeah!! I don't give a FUCK to that just say what ever you wanna say about me Allah S.W.T knows me better. 


This is my problems with my friends. She always with me on every conditions